another day.
i went to the gym this morning and did an hour long dance class.
good for cardio.
im going to go every wednesday now :)

i ate well today. cept after lunch i ate a mint/choc twix - i didnt even feel like it or like it, it was just there. but at least its not in my house anymore, so i wont be tempted again.
ive got to get into my old habits of only buying things that i can eat without guilt.
if i buy chocolate, im going to eat it - so i just have to stop buying it!!!

ive only had one pill tonight instead of two.
i hate being so dopey/sleepy in the morning because of them.
ill have the normal amount tomorrow night, its just ive got an early start tomorrow and i dont want to sleep thru my lecture like i did this arvo!!!

on the scales at the gym im hovering between 70 and 71 kg
so far so good :)

Current Mood: content

wow.
theres been a big gap between entries! ever since i had to get my appendix out ive been off track, but im feeling strong again.

did 30mins at the gym yesterday and stomach muscle exercises - 71.5kg
did 20 mins cardio at the gym today - 72kg (water weight im guessing)

i was scared id put heaps more weight on
im only ~4kg away from my lowest weight

first goal - 67kg (my lowest weight to date)
second goal - 65kg
long term goal - 62kg

Current Mood: determined

ok, its been about a month now since i was hospitalised with appendicitis!
so that floored the weight loss.
not being able to move/exercise sucks!
i went to the gym for the first time in about a month last night - but it sort of hurt, so i think i should not go for a while yet.

anyhow.
i am down to 68kg now. which is good, because i wasnt really trying
i started restricting again yesterday and it went well.
today i have had
* a slice of brown bread
* a thai soup
and i will have salad and vegetables for dinner.

i know i'm way off track, but i want to be 65kg for christmas!!

OK ...

* no more eating just for the sake of it
* no more rice/pasta - except in sushi
* fruit, veg, tea, fruit juice to make up 90% of the food i eat!
* exercise at the gym every day
* work up muscle mass doing weights at the gym
* weigh in everyday, record what i eat and post on here to keep myself on track!

!!!ITS TIME TO GET SERIOUS!!!

I want to be down *at least* another 5kg by the end of November

GOALS -
20th November - 65kg
1st December - 63kg
Christmas - 60kg


I can't wait to get to the gym tomorrow and sweat!!

Current Mood: optimistic

im feeling good today. which is suprising cos ive woken up with a sore throat, blocked nose and headache!
hah.
im eating liquids today.
so far -
* 2 diet pills
* water
* miso soup (40 calories)
* diet tea
I have some soup i can have for dinner, but until then i'll just keep drinking tea and water.
i need to get some more diet soda - thats a god send!!

BEST NEWS
cos im feeling down and gross at the moment, my parents r helping me out with a gym membership!! i am soooo excited cos i havent been able to afford one! its a 5min walk down the road and is awesome. im meant to be joining up today, but i dont know if im up to it, health wise :/



//edit 6pm
Im having a cup of soup - 65 calories - now cos im feeling pretty hungry and weak.
i dont know if im just WANTING to see results, but i swear that my collarbones have started to stick out a little - god i hope so!

Current Mood: happy

A good food day so far ...
* a banana (120 calories)
* 5 pieces of sushi (65 calories)
* a packet of wasabi (5 calories)
Thats ... 190 calories so far.

I'm feeling crap about myself. Haven't slept properly in days.
I wish this would kill my appetite off, but its done the opposite.



/edit
ok: i was FULLY craving a huge hamburger .. yuck.
so ive had -
* 2 light crackers (45 calories) and
* almost a tin of beetrot - i'll finish it later today (160 calories)
That brings it up to ... 395 calories.

ok, im still 71kgs and im sooo sick of it - i want to drop below the 70's on the scale so badly.
today ive had 2 sticks of celery and im starting on a bowl of miso soup now.
so far, under 50 cals.
i need to work myself up to going to a dance class tonight - i know it will be good for me.
but i swear i can feel my bones more now - and the fat on my back/love handles seems to be less.
god i hope its true!!!

theres 10 days til this party where im going to be seeing my ex .. and maybe my ex-ex as well.
plus all the girls from highschool and all the guys. i want to look good. i want to look skinny. i want to have ppl whispering about me. 10 days ... i want to lose another 5kgs at least!!!!

Current Location: 71kg
Current Mood: determined

after yesterday's screw up (4 meals including TWO dinners) im restricting heavily today.
* ive just had a meal replacement drink - 150 calories
* diet pills & heaps of water
* and i just got back from 1.5km walk/jog

i feel pretty good! the weathers nice, im tanned and for some reason i cant stop smiling!! :)
i'll weigh myself later and get back to you - i cant wait to break into the 60's!!!

Current Mood: bouncy

16 jellybeans already ... so disgusting :/

edit/ 2pm
i weighed in today at 72kg!! either those scales r extremely retarded or im finally getting the results ive worked so hard for!!!!
for lunch im having a tiny can of light tuna - 289kj